Lots of Nothing

I am just playing at work, nothing too exciting going on at the moment, though I am almost done with my exit portfolio, I am super excited about that. Also, the computers guys in the 501 building called and said my computer was fixed already which is pretty sweet considering I just took it in on Monday and the guy on the phone said it was going to probably be a week before it was done. I am going to pick it up before I head over to Teetz's tonight to watch SVU. As I said before, I miss the quality time with my buds, because a lot of the time right now the people I see most are ones who (with the exception of Drake of course), when I leave Nebraska, I would not be broken hearted if I never see them again. Some people I will miss, but there are acquaintances and there are friends. I will miss my friends dearly, but acquaintances are just that, and have remained only that, for a reason.

Teetz is going to Seattle on Thursday because he is looking at the University of Washington for grad school. I figured I might as well keep y'all updated with his life here since he never updates his blog ever. LAME! But that's why we love him. I am confident he will make the right decision and attend North Carolina State University. Okay, let me rephrase that: I am confident he will make the BEST choice and attend NCSU. This is best because, while it is not Duke University (that would be the sweetest thing ever and I would visit him all the time) it is also not the University of North Carolina, which would be the worst decision he ever made in his life - the worst anyway aside from his brief foray into the world of friendships with girls who have FUPAs. That was definitely bad, but it was also bad on my part so what can you do?

I am really into the lame blog quizzes right now that occupy my time and take me away from portfolio. I can't remember where I found this one personality test, but it pretty much is me completely, except for a few things here and there. The things I don't think are true I put in italics and bolded, just so we could laugh at them. But wow, this thing was pretty on with most stuff.

"You are forever an attention seeker. Sometimes you say things just for the shock-value and it can get you into trouble, but given your don't-give-a-fuck attitude, it doesn't bother you much at all. You don't like to waste time and you hate when others are late, though you yourself are often running a little behind schedule. But you also believe you are worth waiting for, so others should not mind. Your closest friends do not mind though because they know you and love you in spite of your faults. You are very logical and do not jump to conclusions quickly. You like to see all sides of an issue before making any final decisions. However, you are quick to anger, especially with those you love. You hold them to a higher standard because you chose them out of many, so you believe they are more worthy than others. This sometimes makes you seem full of yourself and while that can be true, it sometimes come down to the matter of trust. You rarely, if ever, give anyone your complete trust - even those you have given your heart to. While you feel you are doing this out of caution for any past wrongs that may have been committed against you, loved ones often feel it is an attempt to sabotage a relationship for whatever reason, whether the action is done sub-consciously or blatantly. This can drive people away, so be careful. Some also perceive you as being devoid of emotion at inappropriate times - such as sappy movies clearly written so as to make the audience weep, hearing stories about the less-fortunate/under-privileged/homeless, or during arguments with loved ones. It sometimes makes you appear cold-hearted, which is not always a wrong assumption. You write people off instantly if you don't feel they measure up and you rarely give second chances because you do not feel most people deserve them, or they would not have wronged you or someone you care about in the first place. This can be good in some cases, but other times you might be missing out on a great friendship or relationship that might have been. However, given that you are prone to being stubborn, often just to prove a point even though you know you are wrong, you will not take the previous advice offered. Additionally, you will never actually admit you are wrong even when you know you are, again, just to prove your point. You are sometimes too independent for your own good and people can perceive you as being stand-offish. You much prefer a quiet night at home, if that is your option verses going out on the town. You don't feel that getting completely hammered and sweating it all off on the dance floor is a good way to spend time or money. And when it comes to that almighty dollar, you hang on to every penny you get so as to always have some for an emergency. You are not frivolous and not one for long days of shopping. You earned your money and want to spend it on something that will last a lifetime, not for twenty minutes. It annoys you to see others wasting it so ridiculously and sometimes you would like to tell them how careless they are being."

Interesting, isn't it? Some of the stuff I don't feel is me, but I didn't want to italicize/bold it because it then talked about how others might feel in that situation and I obviously can't speak for my friends. It is true, especially the stuff about not giving people second chances. I just don't believe most people deserve it. If you fucked up the first time why would I let you fuck up a second time. Now I know there is going to be a chorus of people saying here, "But Sarah, you let Adam fuck up a second time AND a third time." Yes, I did, but then I learned from it and realized I was tired of the bullshit, thus WHY I BROKE UP WITH HIM! In some cases second chances might be warranted, but in most, why bother? If people don't care enough to make good impressions the first time, then they are not worth my time. I usually have a purpose for making an impression the way I do - yes, there have been times when I have purposely made a bad first impression because I didn't think the person was worth my time and in nine cases out of ten I have been right. The whole section on money threw me off, I spend like crazy and it is horrible that I have such a bad habit. When I get pissed I buy myself something and it makes me feel better until I am out of money again, but that hasn't happened in a long time where I have needed something physical like new clothes or DVDs to pull me out of a bad mood.

Days til graduation: 16

Days til I get to leave this shithole apartment: 148